Oh My Tian!

It’s been AGES since I visited this page. I scanned through my last couple of posts and was shocked/surprised at my own writing/post. Hahah!! I can’t imagine myself having such a rush of reflections and actually typing them down.

Well, expectedly, ever since the last post, a lot... and I mean A LOT… of things have changed/happened.

But I must say, the blogspot website is SUPER SLOW AND LAGGY!! Something should be done about this.. Makes it hard to blog..

Then again, some things don’t change.

For example, since my last post of the nice clouds in SG, I’ve been away to another country, back to SG and now, a couple of months since the return, I doubt I ever had the time to pause in my footsteps and look up at the clouds in SG.

Haha! Literally too caught up in a life that’s, in my opinion, bringing me nowhere that I really WANT to be.

I can’t say what or where exactly I WANT to be in life but it’s definitely not here.

It’s not like I’m lacking in material goods or friends or entertainment… I cope pretty well with what I have (and don’t have). But aiyah, sometimes I wish that things could go my way a little more… I say a little more because I’ve been lucky before and still am. =) [Don’t wanna jinx myself or anything… I still need you, now and forever!! ]

Considering how I speed down highways and give irritating drivers a hard time (seriously, they deserve it. All of them!! Slow drivers, Fast drivers, Rude drivers, and the last category, the “stupid” ones), I always feel that there’s someone or in my case, a whole group of people (since I probably need that much), who are looking out for me… Hahaha!! (No offence to the drivers out there)

I guess being conscious of the fact that I’m already quite lucky helps me to rationalize things better, especially when things don’t go as planned or as smoothly. But I guess there’s this quirky thing called “Karma” that I can always blame on. Hahaha!

Nonetheless, it can’t always be an excuse, can it?

When the person beside you can do it, why can’t you?

Of course effort DOES NOT NECESSARILY equate performance. We all know that. We’ve all experienced that. It’s just that no one’s bothered to write a thesis and conduct a full blown research on it. After all, if you believe it, why would you even bother? Hahaha!! Interesting insight, right?

But assuming a normal distribution and having only 2 variables with 2 outcomes, the odds are 50-50, aren’t they? Performance = 0.5 (success) x (good) effort + 0.5 (failure) x (wasted) effort. And they all regress to the mean in the long run… So it’s just a probability? Whether you hit the nail on the head or not? As long as you keep trying, you should be able to succeed in some form or another.

Luck just helps to make sure you don’t have to try too many times before that happens…

An easier way out of this mess, I figure, would be to lower your standard of performance. So the probability of what constitutes a “success” would be higher. Perhaps 90% could be used…

Then performance = 0.9 x effort + 0.1 x effort

In other words, by just any sort of effort, you are able to achieve a kind of success that is well, easier to achieve…

Would life be easier for everyone else that way?

For You 給你

Composer: Eason Chan

Lyricist: Francis Lee (李焯雄)

不要把我推開

當堅持像無賴

當鑽石也變塵埃

我信 你在

唯有寂寞慷慨

骨牌倒了下來

想安慰找不到對白

那空白

可是我 相信愛

我信異想才有日會天開

可是愛 我相信愛

就算一切都像

獨白

我不要藏起來

當堅持像無賴

當鐵樹不會花開

我信 你在

唯有寂寞慷慨

恐懼侵蝕血脈

想安慰卻找不到對白

那空白

可是我 相信愛

我信異想才有日會天開

可是愛 我相信愛

就算一切都像

獨白

忍耐種種不能忍耐

不懷疑該不該

因為我信 所以你會 存在

可是我 相信愛

我信異想才有日會天開

可是愛 我相信愛

就算一切都像

獨白

可是我 相信愛

我信異想總有日會天開

可是愛 我相信愛

就算沒對你說

我愛 我愛 我愛 你會在